DARK POETRY – “I love you and I don’t know why” by Nicole Heinz

You keep pushing me into a corner

The one where we say goodbye

You keep saying the things

The things where we both cry

Till we’re huddled in the hallways of our

beat-up hearts

Dusty, slowing down just to race again, hearts

We’re like a car that won’t start, but only because we’ve lost the keys

We keep searching

Till we’re at each other’s throats, seeking escape from the cage we made

The prison we made from hurts and lies, and fairy tales that never came true

I don’t want to fight, I say to you

I repeat this until my brain goes empty

The love isn’t good enough for you

It’s a vicious cycle with you

I take my part in the blame, I say it freely to you

But there’s a light, a real light just outside this hole

If you could just help me build the ladder

We could build it from anything,

the smallest thing

We could make it from an old song,

We could sing the melody to move our hands again

But you can’t stop, because you want it all to end

The hurt someone else caused owns you like a pencil with no eraser

I try to take it away, over and over again

I could even set fire to that worn down paper you clutch

so closely

Until you see and I see, but it doesn’t matter

Because you want me to hurt the way you hurt

You want that pain to take it away

You keep digging our grave,

I love you and I don’t know why