“Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first.”
Couldn’t agree more. Life is uncertain, dark, throbbing, unexpected, fair, unfair, cruel, giving, taking and above all, uncontrollable and fierce.
You wake up every day, try to fix your feet on the floor, expecting for something good to happen. Expecting to be brave and strong enough to face your day. You always try, so hard, to be good enough.
But loneliness, sadness and the rain in your mind are your worst enemies, and you keep fighting and crawling through the mud. You never know when you suddenly will feel strong. Your anchor is always your source of energy and strength but, not being alone, makes you worry a lot more than you would, if you were only responsible of yourself.
Yes, a little sweet voice raise everyday before yours, expecting you to be the happiest person in the world, to play with her “what do we do now, mom?”
“let’s go play for a while, go take your paints baby.” And you pretend to be the hardest rock on Earth, and stare at this little soul totally depending on you. You can’t escape, you can’t run away. You can’t be coward, you must be the boldest lion on the ring. So you growl, and gather the blood on your hands.
And, when you are running all your adrenaline in this last spring, looking for a way out, suddenly, you hear something that calms your mind, and makes you stop, in the middle of the darkness. The difference is that, this time, you don’t mind about the darkness. You feel safe in it, and like to have no blinding light on your face. You just need to hold a hand, and do not let it go.
Only someone coming from the darkness, can love and accept yours.